We're NOT Free

what if

2009-02-04T04:45:00.000-08:00

Its alright
There comes a time
Got no patience to search
For peace of mind
Layin low
Want to take it slow
No more hiding or
Disguising truths Ive sold

Everyday its something
Hits me all so cold
Find me sittin by myself
No excuses, then I know

Its okay
Had a bad day
Hands are bruised from
Breaking rocks all day
Drained and blue
I bleed for you
You think its funny, well
Youre drowning in it too

Everyday its something
Hits me all so cold
Find me sittin by myself
No excuses, then I know

Yeah, its fine
Well walk down the line
Leave our rain, a cold
Trade for warm sunshine
You my friend
I will defend
And if we change, well i
Love you anyway

Everyday its something
Hits me all so cold
Find me sittin by myself
No excuses, then I know
...
I went to the office one day humming this alice in chains song, the lyrics haunting, and I wish not to be singing it, but it did not stop as if it had its own omnipotent FM station that won't just leave me alone. I recently had a chat with John... met him online via Yahoo's chat rooms. about 2 years ago... and a few days back, he told me he's a terminal case, until June to be exact... he had an accident, his spinal column damaged when he got hit by a car... the elderly couple driving killed, "I should have been the one killed," he said... and you know he meant it.

what's it with John? I have another online friend John, and there's just something with Johns that I find ... well, they are probably the most harmless males I've met in my life... the kind which you know is rare and valuable. sincere. there...

i've lost a grandma who brought me up, lost an uncle who gave me a second lease in life, and they are the closest people I've cared about whom I've lost... and so, I told John I never really considered the dead ones I love dead. Because I recall them alive, and I dream of them and feel their presence. And I suck when it comes to talking about death... and I told him there are a lot of miracles happening daily, and I said, probably, it is not such a miracle to ask for the delay of his date...

A Face in The Crowd

2008-10-19T19:00:00.000-07:00

One of Bad Days for Mary's most catchy and poignant songs...

Alert Level

2008-09-11T18:09:00.000-07:00

September 11 2008, Club Dredd. Stephen Lu, indie producer of the album, frontnman for Runaway Boys and Rizal Underground, reunited the pillars of second wave of Pinoy rock with The Breed, Color It Red and Tropical Depression.

Definitely, Rob Sunico-producer/manager of the Eraserheads' first album, Patrick Reidenbach-the man synonymous with Club Dredd, Jing Garcia-partner of the only absent +Dodong Viray who managed and produced albums of Color It Red, Alamid, et al, lensman Eddieboy Escudero, Par Sallan- producer/manager of Put3ska's and Ex-Presidents' earlier albums, Manny Amador,and a lot of other familiar faces were there.

Alert Level the album was released in 1992 prior to the actual opening of the floodgate featuring 2-3 tracks each from the said bands. The Breed fronted by Charlie Ysmael opened the night... belting out originals including Black Mercedes Benz and covers.

RU followed with collectible Alert Level cassette tape giveaways... with Stephen, multi-awarded Mike and Angelo Villegas twins taking turn on the rein, belting out their hits Bilanggo, Diskaril, Satisfaction Guaranteed, Powder or Lotion, and the hit-cover Sabado Nights.

Color it Red of the ever-pretty Cookie Chua and partner Bopip, with the rest of the gang followed with an intro of the "most emo of 'em all" Addictive... the rest of the females in the group weren't there, though... with covers from 10,000 Maniacs and Pretenders' Don't Get Me Wrong...

Tropical Depression last on the list but definitely the best - sorry Steph, you're right, I really go for island beat - had the early bed patrons missed the cream of the night with originals and tributes Biyaheng Langit of Asin, Ang Himig Natin of Juan dela Cruz, Cocojam's Bilog ang Buwan, and their originals Bagyo Bagyo, Kapayapaan, Mahal Kita. Tropical Depression is Papadom, Pexx, Ariel and Henry... most here not mentioned are either absent, otherwise, I did not do my assignment... In case you're wondering, I wasn't reviewing, nor analyzing... I was dancing...... and enjoying.

...good morning all...

Avril Lavigne

2008-09-05T17:35:00.000-07:00

With my age, I now recoil as analyst rather than music reviewer in this corner. It could be the inevitable aging... It could be a waning interest, it could be because of personal biases and preference...it could be anything at all.

But the September 3 gig of "punk princess" Avril Lavigne was not a punk performance. More of a transition performance from rock to top of the pops (or gunning for it). She had energy of course, 18 songs in a row, with a non-stop stage marching, some gymnastics, a little dancing, and showcasing of her guitar, piano and drums prowess.

She acknowledged how her first hit single "Complicated" will always remain special. I understand. It was a tribute-segue to her predecessor Grammy slammer Alanis Morisette's signature and catchy angst melodies that catapulted her to the heels of the Canadian rocker who remained so.

What was very noticeable on Lavigne's music is the transition from angst-rock, to emo, to all-the-way hip and dance tunes befitting her age and the generation of her listeners. She's ready to challenge the more boring crops of sensational global pop artists we currently have, but she has to learn a lot about the dynamics of dance and pop. Nevertheless, she has nailed her reputation on emo, ballad-rock if you will, singing tunes about unrequited love, undying love, dizzying & confusing passion, and themes that will remain acceptable to teens and young adults, specifically the female gender.

Back

2008-08-19T18:21:00.000-07:00

Back in circulation is what they'd term it... I was tasked to handle our fund raising event just recently and had to summon my organizing skills (and prowess, like it was set aside years back, and as if I had any, haha!)...

So I started contacting and pestering people I know... video editor / producer Reg gave me Jim's number (now with Warner Music Phils...) and through them, I was able to contact Kitchie Nadal's manager Roca Cruz, who immediately committed to help. That was an awesome re-start, really!

I also googled on musicians and band I've heard of...One result, I landed on Kamikaze Baby's site. And while I've sent a lot (OK, about 5) invites for help to other local bands, Kamikaze Baby' Rob immediately responded letting me know they're interested, but there's one problem: they are located in Montreal, Canada. But then, it's not easy to ignore their music, so, I purchased their latest CD, and hope to review it here once it arrives...

For the meantime, I have a lot going, it's crack time once again... (I mean, I have already a load of things going on and adrenaline high is not a Beijing exclusive, Olympics, or not)...

Eraserhead/s

2008-07-23T20:24:00.000-07:00

In the news today is Lifehouse with vox Jason Wade in the Philippines for a gig on July 26 at the Araneta Coliseum. He was shown in a photo with a black Eraserhead shirt...

Eraserhead is a David Lynch weird movie... David Lynch did weird movies and he is quite more popular for discouraging diminutive electronic visual communication or media (stoopid hi-end, mobile phones and gadgets, to be exact). Anyway, Lynch uses a lot of audio dynamics and tells his stories in dreamlike fashion you end up like waking up after a vivid nightmare in most of his movies...

What a prelude... to the Eraserheads "reunion" concert on August 30 at CCP Open Grounds. Eraserheads is the most commercially successful band in the Philippines. (PERIOD). I might be going. I like the band, or Ely Buendia's quirky vocals.

The '90s Rock Bands

2008-06-04T03:06:00.000-07:00

By the time anybody gets to read this, Yahoo! must have pulled out Rob O'Connor's "The 25 Best Alternative Rock Bands Of The 1990s" as if there was alternative rock in the '90s. Alt was mainstream in the '90s.

Here's his list:
25. Sebadoh. I've heard their music or album. Bleech.
24. Dinosaur Jr.
23. Sonic Youth, at 23? Should be top 3 or lower.
22. Pavement. Heavy for me is heavy, and a headache.
21. Flaming Lips. I guess, I liked them, too.
20. Cracker. I did not have nothing against this group, but not enough for me to have them stand out. Jesus, I was listening to loads, like a thousand tapes more to play...
19. Beck. Beck, a Dylan? of course not! But he sure should be on # 2.
18. Weezer. I like 'em, too, with a stupid grin plastered on my cheek.
17. Giant Sand. I am ignorant about a lot of things, including this dune.
16. Afghan Whigs. I am not sure now whether I liked 'em or not.
15. The Breeders. Who didn't like the Breeders?
14. Belle & Sebastian. If ignorance is a mortal sin, I should be shot.
13. Elliott Smith. Or hanged.
12. Mudhoney. Of course I love this band!
11. PJ Harvey. Did she emerge in the '90s? I have this nasty feeling of associating her with Linkin' Park. And it's not an easy feeling.
10. Nirvana. Why the hell... this ain't no alternative in the '90s. They DEFINED THE '90s.
9. Guided by voice. Am ignorant, shoot me again.
8. Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds. Yeah.
7. Vic Chestnutt. Yes, he's good.
6. The Fall. I already had 3 bullets in.
5. Mark Lanegan. Make it five bullets.
4. Julian Cope. Six bullets.
3. American Music Club. Duh!
2. Red House Painters. I'm riddled, brought to the emergency room.
1. Tom Waits. Declared dead.

Here's My '90s list in no particular order nor label:
Alice in Chains
Sonic Youth
Nirvana
Live
Weezer
Tori Amos
Collective Soul
The Breeders
Jill Sobule
Cypress Hill
Beastie Boys
Sugar Ray
Beck
Soul Asylum
Red Hot Chili Peppers
Lenny Kravitz.

But many in my albums' list are compilations I should be posting sometime. And all these are of course western. I have my own local list listed elsewhere... Without time frame.

I've reacted because this is a Yahoo! list. While Microsoft may have pretended not to have any interest on Yahoo!, Yahoo! still tops personal e-mailing in the world.

AfterImage

2008-04-30T00:19:00.000-07:00

And they usually announce it "Wency Cornejo and the AFterImage" like "Bamboo and the Bamboo band..."

'Nuff with the tele-prompt readers. hey, we voted one for vice president, hehe!

So, now that I am back in Quezon City, am still waiting for Club Dredd or Red Rocks to return to Timog... although if you'd check in this posts, Myra Ruaro (formerly Put3ska, because for me, that's their best group, OK?) has opened a joint in the scout areas... haven't check 'tho.

So, there... AfterImage reunited, belting out, perhaps, a new single Musikero from their album Our Place in The Sun(ouch!!! sorry to admit but I was not able to take a hold of any of their albums, they were too popular before I started reviewing, way back...) "Awitin Natin" fashion to the tune of U2 (ooooh-Bono and the keyboards distinct U2 tunes... didn't like U2, but my hubby's in love with the group I am almost jealous of Bono.)

I can't believe GMA (AfterImage was at Mel & Joey promoting) has got such a lousy sound. Hehe. I mean, sound should be a major investment by broadcast companies, and should come at least close to half the quality of MTV... Sure the band may not be a live band, and I don't mean here they were lip synching, NO! There are recording bands (their albums sound good) and there are live bands (their live shows kick ass)... And I haven't been checking these new (and old) bands in the metro, yet. Although it's in my itinerary. I have actually grown old, am now taking my time.

Beck's Black Tambourine

2008-03-23T04:38:00.000-07:00

So OK, Loser's got us all --- mentally. But Beck's Beck on my list. I always get tipsy and dancing...

B52's Rock lobster

2008-03-23T04:20:00.000-07:00

BJ the punk called me a lousy deejay. Good thing I never attempted to be one... I mean, deejaying is one thing and doing a playlist is another. Nevertheless, I'd be lousy in both.

But still one of my all-time faves. I'd skank on this! Pardon me.

Rancid - Time Bomb

2008-03-23T04:14:00.001-07:00

Be posting music I really enjoy... although honest, I like a load like an addict.

Screwed

2008-03-12T21:22:00.000-07:00

Top Music Industry Gaffes (International) (Source: Reuters through Yahoo)

Major labels for driving file-sharing service Napster out of business in 2001, instead of figuring out a way to make money from its tens of millions of users. Napster multiplied like gremlins with a population of about millions to date.
Talent scout Dick Rowe of Decca Records turning down the Beatles, saying "groups with guitars are on their way out," to the band's manager Brian Epstein.
Berry Gordy selling the money-losing Motown Records, home of the Supremes and Marvin Gaye for about $60 million in 1988. In 1989, A&M Records sold for about $500 million, and David Geffen got about $700 million for Geffen Records.

Local:

Record companies including the then Octoarts turning down Eraserheads. The band became the best-selling Pinoy band in local history, under BMG Records Pilipinas.

Bing Austria

2008-03-05T17:35:00.000-08:00

Stumbled upon... Bing Austria of Juan Pablo Dream... Bing used to be with Put3ska, the first ska band signed locally, and if memory serves me right, they were able to produce some four albums, way back... Then, their femme vox, Myra Ruaro formed another band until she became front for Skarlet.

bing austria: may i know you ?

mt: Marge, i used to write way back, decade, about the scene, put3ska, etc

mt: kasama nina Poch C., BJ Cabaluna, et al... saka si Par, hehe

bing: ay oo!!! hahaha sori!musta na?

mt: am fine, blogging... ikaw, sikat ka na... i still do write about music, pero kung ano lang maipadala sa kin

bing: sus sikatsupoy. hahaha... saan ka nagsusulat ngayon?

mt: online

bing: ahhh... isulat monaman kami

mt: sure, send mo ako ng music nu, i'd like tha... saka pics & future skeds na rin

bing: http://papamod.multiply.com/music/item/15/JUAN_PABLO_DREAM_SOUL_UP_ALBUM

... check mo yan... may mga pictures na kami dyan at music videos

mt: ok, pero any update? ... chika

bing: anung update gustomo?

mt: observed trend in the local music scene?

bing: walang substance ang music scene ngayon

mt: hehe.

bing: hehehe

mt: ba't mo naman nasabi 'yan?

bing: mamaya baka may time ka pasyal ka sa gig namin sa katipunan

mt: wala ba kayo sked somewhere north? north based na kasi ako e

bing: minsan may nakausap akong banda ang galing ng sound nila. pero nung kausapin ko wala silang alam sa ginagawa nila. hahaha nawalan ako ng gana sa kanila sayang ... saan ka sa north?

mt: Pag me Baguio or Tarlac kayo, I may go

bing: hhmmmm.... hanap mo kami ng booking dyan. hahaha

mt: sige, pwede, give me package

bing: or ihook up mo kami sa mga producers ng concerts dyan

mt: costs & all

bing: di ko alam sa handler namin eh ... pero napakamura namin promise ... kaya nga di pa rin ako yumayaman eh... hahaha

mt: nyehehe

bing: trade tayo ng number

mt: sana ma-send mo package cost nu ... para i'l see what i can

bing: orayt!

bing: nag reunion ang music front alam mo ba yun? may bar na si myra

mt: saan? g'ling naman nya

bing: sa timog cor sct ybardolaza... 25php lng ang beer

mt: wow, ayus a

bing: sarap ng food

mt: mukang stock holder ka ah ... hehe

bing: yung music front ba alam mo?

mt: parang, cant exactly recall

bing: hinde ako stock holder ... hehehe

bing: ganun lng ako pag naniniwala

mt: tama yan ... buti in good terms naman kayo ... last i know, skarlet si Myra e

bing: yung music front ay yung banda ni arnold morales after ng urban bandits

mt: ah, yes, naalala ko na

bing: wala naman akong kaaway sa eksena eh hahaha

mt: i dont mean that ... kaso, showbiz, di ba?

bing: hahaha! alin ang showbiz?

mt: tayo, hehehehe... just kidding ... pero sa dami ng bago, na di alam ang ginagawa, at rockstar na

bing: hahaha showbiz naman talaga ang eksena eh... hahaha!

mt: ayun, pati mga luma, nakikibaduy... hehehehe

bing: daming itriga sa underground ... yan ang bago ngayon

mt: yan, wentuhan mo ko

bing: showbiz ...maraming pera sa showbiz. hahaha!

mt: hehe, siempre ... mababaliw na mga tao pag walang entertainment... makiki-edsa na lang sila, ganun na lang ba?

bing: kaya lng ang sagwa ng taste ng maraming rockers ngayon... hehehe ... nawala na yung rock n roll attitude ... check mo din ito: http://papamod.multiply.com/video

mt: pls define r'n'r attitude

bing: hahaha mahirap iexplain ... ang hirap sa ym... hehehe... di ako magaling magconstruct ng words... hahaha! minsan paghandaan ko

mt: thanks

Bad Days for Mary

2008-02-24T13:50:00.000-08:00

I was able to find links about BDFM in this bloggin' world, so I am sharing with you. What's so freakin' special about the band? They were composed of rock stars (with their own worlds), comparable to bubblegum popsters all over the world with Camille's signature alluring voice (the Cardigans, a little bit of Jill Sobule, some wave sounds, and a lot of punk, as in the attitude!) . Then, check out the lyrics of their songs...
This Link 1 is a sampler.
and this Link 2 is an interview.

OK, aside from the music, although I wasn't a groupie --- I was one of those on-your-face event organizers-writers during the era -- I shared with BDFM a lot of other activities including Rock'n Rhythm, late nights out, deadlines, the 'zine life (mine's beerMug, yeah the empty), music, music and a hell lot of music. We we're tryin' to get a life!

Anyway, the original line up is made up of Camille, George (bass), Irvin (drums), Ixan (lead guitar), BJ the punk (rhythm guitar), and Mad, aka Tinding Balasubas (keyboards).

Dating & Women

2008-02-01T19:56:00.000-08:00

I stumbled on this dating book promo at Become a Playboy claiming to have all the answers of the issues below:

How to approach any woman without fear ... and get her number!
Killer pick up lines if you don't know what to say
How to tell ... if your girl wants to be kissed
The most powerful attraction and seduction techniques
A step-by-step plan to get that woman you have feelings for!
How to successfully get a date with a model or a hottie
Where to take women on dates without having to pay a dime.
Seduction secrets that will make women melt in your hands
A guaranteed way to get a girlfriend in the next 7 days!
The biggest mistakes YOU make when it comes to women and dating

and decided to have my own say about men, women and dating. Not that I am an expert like David Wygant. Then, there's another claiming "Get Laid Guarantee Okay, here's the deal. Buy this book now and get all 3 bonuses. Try this material out for a full 60 days. If you don't meet 10 beautiful women within those 2 months as a result of this hot new book, then I demand that you ask for a full refund. I will cheerfully refund your money if you do not land yourself a really hot babe within 60 days."

This is life! any guy would be saying, with a devilish grin. I often wonder what's keeping them from having a wonderful relationship...

Because in reality, as much as we would like to believe human relations could be put in a book, it all ends up as a myth. So, more books are written and more books sold. But the problem remains.

I'd offer my unsolicited opinion, anyway, and maybe just freakin' forget it... I mean, okay, it's a lonely world out there. If she's not interested, try find someone who will elsewhere...

How to approach any woman without fear ... and get her number!

At least have an idea why would she want to be aproached by a stranger like you. At least, try to be in her shoe (shoes?). Many attractive women are almost always taken. It's okay to settle for the next attractive one. Or the less attractive one. Better make it your task to make the un-attractive women you can get become attractive. It would be a little unfair, or cruel, maybe. But it all becomes subjective. It just happens that when un-attractive women gets attention from a guy / guys, they tend to bloom and make extra efforts to become attractive. This is the more practical side, you un-attractive fella. Let's face it. Why would an attractive guy need these guides?

Killer pick up lines if you don't know what to say

Maybe, just shut up. Wygant suggested droping a ten dollar bill, or a car key, but make it appear like it was an accident of sort, while the woman you'd like to talk with is a few steps behind. Just make sure she'd spot the key or the bill. Or that she would care. Otherwise, creativity has gone for naught. The killer line? "Oooops!" If it won't work, go back to first tip. Effort is the keyword here. Why would you waste time for a woman you are not really interested with? If it is just a fuck you want, (well, most guys want it for free, darn the economy!) there are very attractive women at the tip of your fingers (online brothels?).

How to tell ... if your girl wants to be kissed

Her breath smells fresh, she smells irresistible, and it seemed okay that you touch her. Otherwise, keep off, or cut the date and go home. Let's not waste some precious time.

The most powerful attraction and seduction techniques

Honesty and transparency. Why force yourself? Just be yourself always works.

A step-by-step plan to get that woman you have feelings for!

Now, do we have to start all over again? It so happens that most attractive women are plain un-decided whom to keep for steady date, or for commitment. We're talking about matters of life and death here. As the joke goes, many women have started to become wise and practical, and would rather keep the sausage in the freezer than bring home a pig. While you may be after the endless carnal pleasure, your woman will be looking for someone who will be a little more attentive to details, like listening to her small talks. A majority of them, anyway, would prefer someone who knows how to listen well.

How to successfully get a date with a model or a hottie

You gotta have the load. Pay David Wgant's workshop, and you're in it. But if it won't work, just being there for her might.

Where to take women on dates without having to pay a dime.

Is this for real? I really do not dig this. Unless of course you own an upscale restaurant. Otherwise, there's no such thing as a free dinner, dude!

Seduction secrets that will make women melt in your hands

This is temporary. Lust is very temporary. If you are after sex, it is almost always practical to have it with a paid woman. But if you are really want her for --- say --- a year or two (haha), there is no need to seduce if the woman feels the same.

A guaranteed way to get a girlfriend in the next 7 days!

Seven days? Cool. That's fast. Then lose her in 24 hours. Of course, there are techniques that really work. Work on convincing her for a couple of days. Then, avoid her as if she was a plague afterwards, and, it is suggested, she'd come running to you. Yeah right! Just don't be a pig, ever, okay?

The biggest mistakes YOU make when it comes to women and dating

Being a pig. Women like sex for pleasure. But need more time for little details, like listening while she talks about her favorite charity, or her snotty neighbor, or the pig next door.

Of Morality & Youth

2008-01-27T22:00:00.000-08:00

Maybe, it has something to do with age. Manila Bulletin recently published the decline of moral standard among the youth of today. I am not surprised as I use to hear my grandparents, aunts and uncles shake their head and say, "The youth today have changed..." and how a single glance on them carried with it a litany of things to do and not to do... that was about a decade or two ago.

In forums, it is normal to discuss about SEB, FuBu, and other things I used to suspect only bar girls would talk about (in a day's work). The farthest I've been exposed to using in an ordinary chat is Fubar, 'cause we once hosted a night (or a couple) of it at Club Dredd (Fubar, BTW, meant fucked-up beyond any recognition, or something as close).

Maybe, it has something to do with the shift of lifestyle, from ordinary office hours, to a 24-hour work environment brought about by call centers. Maybe, it is the coffee shops that proliferated in the metro nowadays...

Take this sampling from a recent chat with a stranger, a Pinoy...

wan_derer_ph : hello po!
wan_derer_ph : asl?
me: ha? ikaw nagpa-add
wan: 27m
wan: heheh
wan: kau po?
me: as in? i tot u were an applicant
wan: heheh.. applicant of?
wan: for what madam?
wan: ... nope, i got ur id from salbahe...
me: ah, ic, sino ikaw dun? hehe
wan: i just read ur post ...
wan: im not a member, just reading po kaya ko po nakita
me: ok, am old, am married, in pluto, lol
wan: did i mention about sex? hehe
me: i feel i am 104, obviously, if u can't c my dsplay pic, am a female, location is Pilipinas
wan: heheh... 104? hmmmm... ung seryoso po...
wan: btw, im melvin, 30yo
me: naku, if u feel that old, d pa ba seryoso yon?
...
wan: i dont chat at home... browsing lng ... hahahah
me: ah, hehe, i understand ... selosa ba?
wan: yup...
wan: heheh... natural ba sa babae un?
me: hehe... ende. ako, hindi ako selosa
wan: ganun b? hehehe
wan: nakita nya kasi minsan may kachat akong chicks.. hehehe
mte: nakow, e baka naman u were flirting, iho?
wan: hahah.... partly yes.... heheh... friendly flirt... hehe.. meron ba nun?
me: di ko alam... : ako kasi, either it is or it is not
wan: ano po?
me: nung pakasalan ko kasi mr ko, I made sure ako lang mamahalin nya... so, wala akong pinagseselosan
wan: ganun ba? ok po
me: me certain guys kasi na polyganous talaga, mga 90% of men
wan: sabagay sa ganda nyong yan eh di na kayo ipagpapalit... hahaha
wan: 50% lang po ang womanizer..
me: di ako maganda, sabi ko, siguro ano, maganda mood ng camera nung kuhanan ko pix ko
wan: hmmmm... : di naman po siguro magkakamali ung cam... unless meron syang auto-photoshop... nyahaha
me: parang ano din yan e, yong salamin na bolero, di ba meron nun?
wan: ganun ba un?
me: feeling ko ganun e... o kaya, maganda lang gising ko
wan: hmmmmm ... naman...nakikita mo naman yan eh... kita mo nga di na nambababae mr mo
wan: nung nagpost kau, inopen ko ung profile nyo
me: ah, OK
wan: im searching for a gal to flirt with kasi kaya lang wrong number pala na-dial ko... hahaha
me: pero am good in giving tips... madami ka rin matututunan s'kin,
wan: ah ok....gaya po ng ano?
me: ask
wan: di ko pa kasi natry nag-extramarital love affair... hehehe
me: plan mo?
wan: heheh... if may opportunity.... hahaha
me: mind if I ask why gusto mo ng xtramarrital affair?
wan: siguro adventure lang po...havent done it before kasi eh... heheh... and i only experiencehaving sex with my wife i was too concentrated with my studies kasi noon
me: ok lang naman na loyal ka e
wan: how about kung tumikim naman ng iba?
wan_derer_ph (1/21/2008 6:04:00 PM): hahah
me: okey din lang mag flirt... : siguro, kahit cyber affair...
wan: havent tasted ibang putahe pa kasi eh
me: pero kung sa opinion ko lang, hanggang dun lang
wan: ganun? pero gusto ko po ung actual eh... ok lng ba ung cyber affair?... sex on cam?
me: oo kasi, lalake ka
wan: mga ganun? hirap naman maghanap... mas gusto ko kasi actual kasi eh... di ko feel ung sa net lang. may kilala po ba kayo na pwede?
me: dami mga girlie bars jan...eto tip: open minded ba misis mo?
wan: bakit po? di nga eh, selosa nga eh
me: u try role-playing na lang
wan: bakit po ba? anong role-playing?
me: like, kunyari pretend na text mates kayo, then, you meet somewhere, like a bar or something. then, saka kayo punta sa isang resort
wan: ganun
me: gusto mo lang ba adventure? i dont really advise it e
me: i can only advise alternatives
wan: ano naman po?
me: 1st, yon nga role playing, 2nd, cyber affair lang
wan_derer_ph (1/21/2008 6:12:13 PM): with my wife?
me: sa first, oo, with ur wife, sa 2nd, with any woman who wants to
wan: ah ok...
me: madami sa mga chat rooms
wan: i love my wife po but im not perfect. im just human
me: well, mag flirt ka na lang ng walang humpay...
wan: ok lng sayo kahit i ask for actual and not just cyber?
me: actual na tawa?
wan: nope. SEB
me: what's SEB?
wan: sex eyeball po
me: nye, kala ko sa mga call center peeps lang yon
wan: y naman? adventure lang naman
me: sige bata, ingat sa pagtawid

Online Dating

2008-01-17T20:28:00.000-08:00

Like I am an expert on this topic. I can't be and never will. But it happens that nowadays online relationship has become a necessity for adult men and women as our economic policy-makers have reduced all relationships into some forms of economic reasons... which means all adults must transform a majority of their time as productive...Yay!

Okay, here's a very funny overview and an advice on online dating from David Wygant. Pardon me if I find it funny. Must be the east-west divide (no, I don't mean terrorism issues, lol!. I am not in the business of arms manufacturing, dealing or marketing! Am not even from the U.S. Haha!)

Why am I on this stuff? We have plans to launch an online dating site and basically, it is still on its development stage. And I need to know a few things about online dating and online affairs and cultivating online relationships...

But what's with online dating?

It seemed at first glance online dating and online affair was the evolution of SOP (sex on the phone). As for sex, Live Science says sex is something that's normally craved for...so much like violence and food.

But going farther, apart from sex, appreciation and expression are an intrinsic factors that online relationships (whether it be with real-life friends and family members to total strangers) thrive: in forums, chatrooms, blogs, elsewhere. An example is for Filipinos whose many families and friends are separated due to economic reasons translated remittances. Through networking sites, they can be updated about most screened and intentionally posted events, photos, whatever.

But for many Westerners, i.e., Caucasians, I have observed that many adult males and females are actually having an advantage and want to gain the most out of it. Unfortunately, though, as they discover and begin to appreciate Asian or Oriental values (family-centeredness, loyalty, and valueing character above material things), these are slowly melted and mixed with Western individualism, freedom and openness.

While it is safe to say that pornography, for instance, exists in most parts of the world since the naked creation, it has pushed a lot of boundaries as the body and its pleasures are glorified in the net.

What we miss as we are made to believe about the hype of the flesh are the more pleasant and acceptable ways on which we could interact and become intimate with other people as friends or relatives (clan or family members). As I tried to point out earlier, as an Asian, married and with children, I was able to develop friendship with Caucasian guys (teen and adults) who sought online means to connect and express, and not to see or show some of their body parts. In the long run, these are more pleasant, less stressful, and can be cultivated like a neighborhood friendship...

The killer

2007-12-19T21:56:00.001-08:00

In my mind, i have murdered an IT. he was a "friend", I used to believe. We drank beer together, listened to them sound check (darn!) on stage or at the researsal studio, and we swapped record collections back when CDs were priced like gold!

I have been going through over and over what have i done wrong... why sabotage my source of income. why lose all our websites! and when i was asking for just one, if only i did not pay, i would understand...

and he turned the other cheek as if Ginebra was not round... o-no-no, the gin's not round...

but we'll get there, one of these days.

have not been chatting with anyone lately. It's the peak season (of work) and a free time is like an oasis in Sahara. Or Afghanistan.

Ei, I have been writing about east & west (again) lately and...

I hate bombs.

My Second Life Revisited

2007-11-12T04:59:00.000-08:00

Not that much of a revisit, but yes, I went to Club Dredd about 2 weeks ago... It is now located at Libis, in Eastwood, near C5 (the highway that connects Marikina, Cubao and Pasig)... through the invitation of friend-classmate Carmela Cruz.

The night, dubbed as Rockabilly, had about several bands playing (but not as much as the regular line-up of about a dozen). It used to be that at the old Dredd, you'd always see familiar faces, and, friends. That night, I get to meet Cocojam's Girlie Bernardino and the members of the revived Runaway Boys. I'd upload and input reviews later as I have yet to get the photos we took from my sis Badz...

My Favorite Locals

2007-10-23T03:53:00.001-07:00

Just in case you're wondering I am not into local Pinoy musicians, please do excuse me for awhile, my lapse. Below are my Pinoy's best list not necessarily in parallel with yours:
1 Asin
2 Apo Hiking Society
3 The Dawn
4 The Youth
5 Yano
6 Put3ska
7 Eraserheads
8 True Faith
9 Chain Gang
10 Bad Days for Mary
11 Siakol
12 RiverMaya (I like Bamboo and Nathan but I still tip my hat off Rico)
13 Kitchie Nadal
14 Bunny
15 Cocojam
16 Peacepipe
17 Tropical Deppression

Most of them are already legends. Classic. For those who have not heard of Asin, you're missing a large chunk of Philippine OPM. You need to hear them so you'll know your Pinoy music 101. And of course, Apo Hiking Society. Most in my list are major label bands except for Chain Gang, Bad Days for Mary and Bunny (if I had not been nakuryente courtesy of da Punk). These are bubblegum popsters, cheeky, fun, rarities you could treasure once found, and so sweet you'd want to kiss someone if you hear their album. Yup, they've got albums. The catch here is, find a half if you can.

And of course, you have noticed I did not list down other popular bands. Like Wolfgang (harharaharhar!) or Brownman Revival. Well, first of, I already like Alice in Chains, and I do not have much for Metallica or Eddie Vedder, so why would I want something that sounds like them? As for revivals, I like the way "There She Goes" by the La's revived for the nth time, "Knockin' on Heaven's Door", Sinead O'Connor's version of "Nothing Compares to You" and how Sonic Youth did the Carpenters' "Superstar", so, what else could a simple freak like me want?

If you are a global Pinoy and would like a taste of Pinoy's locals that are comparable to your international favorites, you may check out my list. It's not an expert's, more of a biased pop listener's choice.

Photo here is Ixan Perc of Bad Days for Mary.

Borrowed Message

2007-10-23T03:47:00.000-07:00

I got this from These City Streets and it's quite a shaky message:

"I kept the faith and I kept voting
Not for the iron fist but for the helping hand
For theirs is a land with a wall around it
And mine is a faith in my fellow man
Theirs is a land of hope and glory
Mine is the green field and the factory floor
Theirs are the skies all dark with bombers
And mine is the peace we knew
Between the wars."

-Billy Bragg

Bias

2007-09-14T03:12:00.000-07:00

I don't know if I should be reviewing music at all... I like a wide variety of it, from pop to rock's too many genre... and while I listen to Flatfoot 56 or Yorkshire rats, and its like falling in love anew over the Clash...

I mean, if I had been a musician, I'm sure I'd be playing punk rock. Ei, oi... oi...oi, yeeeaah.

The energy, how a few guitar strumms, rants and angst, and a few words could produce music and reveal passion just amaze and lit me up... like no other genre...

But then again, I guess I'll just keep on reviewing everything. It's fun and I like it the way it is... rock on!

Guilt by Association

2007-09-11T01:57:00.000-07:00

J.D. Bouck - vocals / guitar Adrian Boisclair - guitar Britt Bouck - bass / vocals Ryan Griffith - drums

Guilt by association started with J.D. and Britt, a singer/guitarist brother and bassist sister duo. They claim to be tired of listening to the less than genuine bands that filled the airways in the summer of 2000, so they decided to make their own blend of metal, rock, and hardcore. And concocted a sound they call their own: rockcore. Drummer Ryan Griffith and guitarist Adrian Boisclair completed the lineup.

JD says, “It takes a certain type of person to tour and write and constantly go in and out of the studio. We truly feel we are all partners in crime.”

Their site said they built a fan base, dubbed the Inmates, from their hometown of Chatsworth, California to across the U.S. and beyond. Guilt by association’s live performance was hailed as the weapon to take them to the grand court of rockstardom, though “it takes as much of a physical toll on the band as it does on the listener and their senses.”

“It’s very exhilarating to hear the crowd screaming your name,” says Griffith, “You kind of want to run and hide but you definitely don't want them to stop.” The band has earned respect while sharing the stage with Motorhead to A Static Lullaby, Skid Row to Dillinger Escape Plan.

Here's a stumbling of one of the band's members:

rockstarp: how are you?
rp: you're cute
m: tnx
rp: where are u from?
m: phils
rp: cool.
m: haha!
rp: do u want to c2c?
m: no
rp: well i c u!
rp: (smile)
rp: do u c me?
m: ya
m: u play music?
rp: yes
rp: i play guitar
rp: do u like guitar her?
rp: *do you like guitar?
m: yea
m: of course
rp: do you play?
m: no
m: i wrote words
rp: oh that's awesome
m: what d'u play? emo, alt, grunge?
rp: hmm...metalcore/rock emo
rp: how old r u?
m: 104
rp: 104??
m: i see ur guitar
rp: lol yay!
m: i dont like emo
rp: i like all music. as long as it has instruments
rp: do u like tattoos?
m: just lookin. i dont wanna get hurt
rp: hehe
rp: i have a few
m: its ok
m: where d'u play?
rp: everywhere...
rp: http://myspace.com/gba
rp: that's my band
m: what's gba?
rp: guilt by association
m: what's that, accessory 2 d crime? lol
rp: yes lol
rp: hehe
m: i'd listen sometime
m: u had samplers in there?
rp: we're very well known
m: really? u'r signed?
rp: yes
rp: i just come on here when i'm really bored
m: indie or major?
rp: indie. we play with bands like Adema, Dilinger Escape Plan, Drowning Pool, Fear Factory, Saliva...heavy rock bands
m: only heard of fear factory
m: i was like stuck a decade
rp: can u see me still?
m: ya
m: was that a map or sumthin? lol
rp: it's a heart
m: i c
rp: and i got a new one...
m: cool
rp: u likes?
m: haha
rp: who are u with?
m: no 1
rp: oh
rp: u r sexy
m: me?
rp: yeah
m: lol
rp: do u ever come to us?
m: no plan yet
rp: i know many people that live here that are from Philippines
m: yeah, its all over
m: Filipinos
rp: lol
m: ei
rp: can i see the restof u?
m: u mean stand?
rp: yes and turn
m: wait
rp: nice butt lol
m: hev u released an album?
rp: yes
rp: amazon.com
rp: you should buy it
m: k, i'l check
m: but u'r probably kidding
rp: go to amazon.com and search for guilt by association
rp: the name of the cd is called Living In Silence
m: i c
rp: did u find it?
m: wait
m: u'r not in d pic
rp: yes i am!
rp: lol
rp: which pic are u looking at?
rp: that's not my band!
rp: just go to http://guiltbyassociation.com
rp: whats ur name?
rp: adrian
m: ok
m: guess i'll just hev 2 review ur album
m: nice meeting u tho
rp: yeah
rp: remember
rp: www.guiltbyassociation.com
rp: it's that simple
rp: why don't u just listen to me and check it out?
m: u'd sing?
m: lol
rp: yes
m: k
m: i'd turn my speaker on
rp: i have to go to sleep
m: k bye
rp: good night sweetie!

The review: In fairness, I only get to hear the sampler from amazon.com. I am not such a fan of heavy rock, metal, core, whatsoever, but I always appreciate melody evident in Waste Away, Whisper, Better Off, Starve Me, hidden beneath slashing guitars and hooks with mellow interludes. Angry vocals and punishing drives are evident in Living in Silence, Liar, Safe Inside and Sleep.

These are all the ingredients we’d get from Living in Silence’ 9 cuts. Either they are mixed altogether, a sampling per a few seconds of seduction, passion, and anger, or you’re on a ride that won’t hurt the ears at all. I mean, yes, we've been served these improvements before, and they just keep on improving and evolving, and we, non-heavy rock listeners could only be thankful.

It just amazes me how they could have passed up an opportunity to showcase Britt Bouck's vocal prowess. Either they did, or I simply missed it. But it just would keep bothering me until I'd have a chance to listen to the whole album.

Alter Cry

2007-08-30T19:20:00.000-07:00

I met David at Y! rock chatroom. As I wrote earlier, there are actually music sharing and swapping done at Y! rock, under music. Yup, there are a lot of freeloading hangers (duh, there for free cam viewing) and boots (they call them boot, IDs that lead to porn sites). To this date, I've listened to a lot of garage heavy pieces shared in the chatroom or passed on to me. Actually, I met one who played country, and another who played everything but country, and I kinda swap their IDs and have not heard from them since. Well, I can't recall, maybe, I had them spammed, or whatever.

Anyway, I have planned to revive my music review hobby way back (a few decades back, and it was not a career actually because whatever I earned from it never got to pay my rent, just collect albums to swap or share with friends, although it occupied most of my youth years). I don't know if I still qualify... first off, my memory of band/musician names and albums, as well as musical history sucks like vacuum (nothing in), 'coz I only get to remember names & titles of those that carried me through hell. And I got stuck in the last century's hits, its like a time machine ride now.

Well, am giving it a try, though. And this one is tough 'coz they are a Christian band. I had reviewed Christian bands before doing easy alternative, and I can no longer recall even the bands' names.

So, what's with Christian bands?

I have never distinguished Christian bands from any other genre, although spiritual pieces always blew me away just like most any other listener. Lecturer Dennis O'Brien acknowledged that rock'n roll and God have always been considered anthemic. But if there is one thing spiritual and so damning good about this music hits, it is their subtlety on spiritualism.

So, there is a strong polarity between "religion" (which has taken a very ugly, brutal and actually disgusting face in contemporary psyche) and "spiritualism" which is much the more acceptable and in trend now.

For the spiritual pieces, we'd take on REM, U2, even Nirvana, and a lot of other major names (Losing My Religion, I Still Haven’t Found What I’m Looking For, Smells Like Teen Spirit) as anthemic and spiritual.

And, as much as I would like to believe Christian music is not religious, I can only hope that the musician per se would agree. But then again, as it had always been with me, it is the music which is the soul. So there is not much to argue in here. Here's our initial chat with Alter Cry:

David Hanson: sup
M: ello! what's new w/ ur music?
Dh: we changed name to Alter Cry ... www.myspace.com/alterycry we found a drummer and 2nd guitarist and will be checking out a keyboardist
Dh: not sure if u knew the name change
M: cool. where r u based? i'd check ur site
Dh: our page is www.myspace.com/altercry
M: K. thanks!
Dh: just posted new lyrics on there and the newest one is Come Home
M: i'd make some reviews bout u in my blog...
M: i'd send u link if done
Dh: cool, some one asked about what our name meant like Alter what did we mean by it alter and in change or altar as in worship... i can send u some info on what our band name means
M: ok, i appreciate whatever info u cd send.
Dh: the {e} in alter means that each and everyone has an error, not one of is perfect. we all fall short of the glory of God. No matter how rough life may get, God still loves us, he will never leave nor forsake us, and he tells us come as we are, and to love one another. to pray for one another/ to lift up one another. Alter Cry means, in the moment when they feel God's love rushing in, and running to God with a humble heart, letting go of everything of their self and laying it down before him. crying out to him to save them. to be renewed in a new creation in Jesus.... when we wrote the name we wrote alter cry. thinking it was right. about a month ago someone mentioned is alter meaning altar.... and that sparked a theme with what the name stood for.... that we all sin, and fall short,
Dh: and needing a fix from the Most High
Dh: not one of us*
M: band member bkgrounds?
Dh: we will have that later on in time i do believe
Dh: K. how about u? bakground pls?
Dh: My name is Dave Hanson, I'm 23 years old I am married to Hannah Hanson, it would be cool to do a full background with the whole group... background about us... We are a Christian Hard/Heavy Melodic Rock group and we do some slower stuff. our mission is to let people know that they are loved by God and that he will will never leave
M: nor forsake them
M: no matter how rough life may get, God is there
M: Dan does bass, Auggie does guitars, Joe on drums, and my wife on back-up vocals, and I do Guitars/vocals and were looking to add a keyboard player
M: u there
M: yup
M: just say what u hev. ds message is saved
Dh: k
Dh: could i see what ya got so far
M: the review?
M: I'l do it later. I'd send u link in case u get offline
Dh: k, sounds good thx

Alter Cry / A Review

The first sampler of Alter Cry is "Love Them". It has some strong riffs, with vox that reminds me of Seattle. The words could carry on this one, "No matter what (they/you) do..." just as long as they add more passion on the guitars (lead, bass, rhythm).

"Truth" is an experimental mix, got some hooks, too, and a mellowing that suddenly leads to a halt, it left me wanting for more. Haha!

"Amazing Grace" reminds me of Eddie Vedder but this one is really raw and needs dressing up.

"Jesus is Your Strength" is an acoustic piece that has an appeal, and has a potential if only the vox and the guitar could work it up a little bit more in sync with what they'd really want to express...

Each of the four samplers had its own identity and if the band could work up on tightening their music, build up on passion (a whole lot more so that hell would spew them out) --- okay, angst, and delete raw on their identity, we're get a real sampling of what's supposed to be in for us.

Never Give Up

2007-08-23T01:06:00.000-07:00

But there are those who are so persistent they would disappear for a while, then come back and try again...

psx_hater: why wont u show?
mt: what will i show?
psx_hater : boobs maybe??
mt: ei, Max, sup?
psx_hater : huh?
mt: oooooooops. hehe
psx_hater : u are so hot i can't believe u don'tlike to show
mt: Y baby, am married and sexually content.
psx_hater : but u don't like to show off ur hot body?
psx_hater : knowing that u get guys off?
mt: not exactly but i already hev 3 young kids. If i had been single and still the nasty gal i used to be, i might
psx_hater :
mt: ei, there r lotsa pron sites u can view for free!
mt: porn
psx_hater : there are free ones?
mt: yup
psx_hater : what are they
mt: google it
psx_hater : i would still rather see ur hot body...cause ur normal
psx_hater : don't u think seeing normal people is a lot hotter
mt: i dont know. real person is hotter. like, of course, my husband is d only hottie i know
psx_hater : u think ur husband would be mad if u helped someone cum on cam?
psx_hater : that's not cheating
mt: dont know. but of course, for me its fine to hev helped sum 1 cum, as long as nobody demands anything from me.
psx_hater : i hope ur not thinking i'm demanding i just think ur hot
mt: no. its ok. u'r honest, am honest, so its fair
psx_hater : could u even show now if u wanted to?
psx_hater : or u not alone
mt: no. i really can't. If my job has been related to showing my body, i would, no doubt
psx_hater : oh so you've never helped anyone on here cum before?
psx_hater :
mt: i guess there had been several viewers who just did it just viewing me on cam b4... but i never gave in 2 demand, the rude ones, i spammed
psx_hater: hehe so u did a quick flash for them then?
mt: no, i just went on with my work while d cam is on.
psx_hater : does ur husband give it to u rough or soft
mt: he gets rough most of d time, but i tell him to b a little subtle
psx_hater:lol
psx_hater: is ur pussy shaven or u like to have hair down there
mt: no comment
psx_hater: ah why
mtbmug: i dont like to discuss my private parts.
--

(9/1/2007 10:22:03 AM)
psx_hater: sup hot sutff
m: haven't given up baby?
psx_hater: what do u mean
m: lol, none, am OK, u?
psx_hater: guess i'm not good enough for u huh? what do u need a guy with a 8 inch cock?
m: (lol)
m: am like 103 yrs old, honey
psx_hater: so that's hot
m: and u'r probably like 18
psx_hater: no i'm 25
m: well, OK
psx_hater: im not sure u could even handle an 8 incher
m: maybe, if we hev met on a better time
m: yeah, u'r right
psx_hater: why this is a bad time for u? u showin for another guy huh
m: no, am married, w/ 3 young kids, & my huby's here in d office with me, and all that
psx_hater: ah i see
m: u work?
psx_hater: ya
m: maybe, if u'r not like let me c ur tits, i;d introduce u to my single sis
psx_hater: haha
m: she's 25, too, working 4 AXA insurance
psx_hater: sorry i'm horny a lot i would prolly get myself in trouble...pharmacy here
m: ya? lol. yes, she's got a tart tongue
m: like, maybe, spam u sooner than u'l ever know
psx_hater: what do u mean spam? like block me? haha
m: dont know how she handles it.
m: s dat u on d pic?
psx_hater: ya ur sister is prolly all inocent...i would corrupt her
psx_hater: ya
m: u look young, s old pic?
psx_hater: nah, like a year and a half old maybe
psx_hater: maybe 2 years
m: what's ur name?
psx_hater: Mark
m: Mark what?
psx_hater: Mark Walters
m: loc?
psx_hater: huh?
m: ur location now?
psx_hater: oh ohio
psx_hater: what is this an interview?
psx_hater: lol
m: ei, u know, u'v got d looks, i wonder y u settle on ds stuff --- chat
psx_hater: cause it's fun
m: (lol)
psx_hater: does ur sister have cam?
m: dont know. she only gets online in internet cafes
m: like, she cant do it at work
m: here,
m: horniestfrigid
m: ID
psx_hater: well that sucks...she can't show at internet cafes
m: show tits? lol
m: ur nuts
psx_hater: ya she can't do that there
m: der r a lot free online porn
psx_hater: real girls are always better though
m: den y not go out and meet real girls instead, baby?
psx_hater: no i mean like real girls on cam
m: its like watching some porn video
psx_hater: ya kinda
m: see?
psx_hater: it's hot though
m: y psx_hater???
psx_hater: i dunno why not
psx_hater: lol
m: what's psx?
psx_hater: nothing its just some letters
psx_hater: ur sister a virgin?
m: guess so, like, i had 2 ask, ei sis, u still a virgin?
psx_hater: no i love sex...i doubt ur sister is a virgin

Nice Ones

2007-08-23T00:56:00.000-07:00

Just as you would like to think all freeloaders just wanna see tits or boobs on cam, here's one who sends me regularly a quote about the better things in life. Jack sends messages mostly when the recipient is offline. These were sent in different dates, but I was not able to save lots of these messages. My loss.:
usmc.jack: Beauty is not in the face; beauty is a light in the heart.

mt: thanks for ur messages
usmc.jack: yw

usmc.jack: Hi There!
usmc.jack: The magic of first love is our ignorance that it can never end.

usmc.jack: Once you have loved, You will always love. For what's in your mind may escape, But what's in your heart will remain forever.

usmc.jack: The Eskimo has fifty two names for snow because it is important to them, there ought to be as many for love.

Frustrated Incorporated

2007-08-11T19:49:00.000-07:00

jayson: hey, whats up, 24/Guy/Florida
m: Hi Jayson, alien here, 103, pluto
j: sweet, pretty damn far away, 103...what is that is human yrs?
m: guess so
jayson: sweet, so aliens look just like cute humans
jayson_789789: so what are u up to a bit late?
m: yes, i copied. lol. am at d office
jayson: oh, so u are "working" now?
jayson: nice, u aliens have it made, getting paid to play on the net
m: yes, but nt show, am making letters
jayson: but what?
m:
jayson: its 4 in the morning here, and u are stuck working?
jayson: looks like a very casual work outfit
jayson: not that i'm bitching or anything
m: yah, i own d office.
m:
m: sometimes, i work here in relief shirts
jayson: oh, nice, guess u make the rules and dresscode then
jayson: hmmm...releif shirts?
m: from salvation army.
jayson: oh, gotcha
jayson: sounds comfy
m: yah
jayson: but yea, im comfy too, 4 in the morning, so its not like i'm all dressed up either
jayson: just in boxers and a wifebeater
m: k, cool
jayson: so u are working on business now, or just taking a lil break?
m: working, actually
jayson: guess u are good at mulit-tasking then
m: yup
jayson: i worked earlier tonite, but went out with friends afterwards
jayson: for a friends b-day
m: great, u must hev a hangover, lol
jayson: funny, well its 4 in the morning and i have not slept yet, so no hangover yet
jayson: but yea, i am still buzzing and a little bit drunk
jayson: it was a fun nite
jayson: just not tired yet
m: i c
jayson: yea, definetly, dinner, drinks, and a few bars/clubs
m: well, u didnt get laid. lol
jayson: food, girls, and drinks, thats pretty much all a guy needs, right? so i cant complain it was a fun nite
m: good.
jayson: hey, what makes u thin I did not get some?
m: and u want to drain d alcohol
jayson: think*
m: coz u should be tired and snoring. lol
jayson: i am not tired yet, and i did have a girl over
jayson: so we had some fun
jayson: she just had to leave
m: o, ok
jayson: her friend made her leave
jayson: her friend was upset she wasnt getting any
m: oh sad
jayson: funny, i'm sure u feel bad for me
m: not exactly. i am just friendly, like an old buddy
jayson: yea, i did not think I was getting any pity from you
m: y should i pity u? lol
jayson: but yea, her friend was yelling, saying she had to leave or whatever
m:
jayson: u know, b/c i had a girl in my room just taken away from me b/c her friend was crying or whatever
jayson: i think she was just jealous
jayson: and i was teasing, i was not asking for pity, it just wasnt cool what her friend did, thats all
m: most probably.
m: u should have tried her
jayson: i just thanked her for ruining the end of my nite
m: must be a bitch of sort.
jayson: definetly
jayson: my roommate was sleeping, i was trying to wake him up to distract her
jayson: so i could be with my girl
jayson: it didnt work
m:
m: rude
jayson: of me?
jayson: my roommate was too drunk, he passed out
m: some luck u got
jayson: i know, so not fair
jayson: but whatever, i'll get over it
m: yes.
m: loc?
jayson: where am i at?
jayson: Florida
m: OK, we're on opposite time zones
jayson: yea, i figured
jayson: with u working
jayson: where are u at
jayson: i am in no shape to work now
m: its ok, i can handle ds
m: am in pluto
jayson: i yea, pluto i forgot
jayson: crazy that u speek english on pluto too...what are the odds
m: well, we're a little advance, i guess lol
jayson: and u have a salvation on pluto too
jayson: thats crazy, we have those too
m: well, we imported
jayson: really, and its cheaper to import from earth rather than make your own?
jayson: i dont know...i have a hunch you're lying, i'm getting suspicious
m:
m: i hang in here to listen to NO RAIN. lol
jayson: hmm...the blind melon song?
m: yup
jayson: did that song just hit puto? b/c it came out like 15 yrs ago or so
jayson: Pluto*
m: No, i got stuck w/ 90s earth music. lol
m: been listening to it for more than a decade too
jayson: oh, i see, that makes total sence then
m: well, i ws trying to catch up at Y! rock
jayson: can't be easy i'm sure
jayson: the music gets worse anyways
jayson: so maybe u shouldn't
m: yes, i guess. like, emo? i'd take air supply any time
jayson: i like some new stuff
m: ya, some
jayson: but most, like fergie or whatever, i cant stand
m: some remakes! lol
jayson: were u just being a boss?
jayson: looks like u were just talking to someone
m: ya, tax matters
jayson: tax matters...fun
m: fun?
m:
m:
jayson: teasing obviously
jayson: definetly not fun
m: yeah.
m: brb
jayson: k
jayson: oh, you're back
jayson: more exciting tax matters?
m: alwals shit
m: always
jayson: hmm...and u changed your hair?
m: the BIR makes my world hot
jayson: hmm...BIR?
m: Bureau of Interbal Revenue
m: Internal
jayson: oh, gotcha
jayson: i thought u meant like hot, as in turned-on
m: boil.
m: i wanna send them all 2 hell
jayson: go for it
jayson: i won't say anything
m: thnakx. really need that
m:
jayson: our little secret
m:
jayson: what time is it there?
m: 4:42 pm
jayson: oh, so at least your day of work is almost over
m: no, i just wish
m: loads of work
jayson: oh, thats not cool
jayson: dont u get a break to play a bit
jayson: i mean, u are the boss afterall
m: ya, am a workaholic
jayson: oh, but u dont want to burn yourself out
jayson: u need some fun, thats all
m: i might. lol. than 2 fade away.
jayson: exactly, so finish work early and relax and have some fun
m: fun? its enough fo me to listen to my music
jayson: k, whatever works for u then
jayson: dont let my questionable, american work ethic bring u down
m: no, its ok, i respect all kinds of ethics
jayson: i was only making a joke
m: sure, its ok
m: besides, i dont think americans hev questionable work ethics.
m: just questionable economic ethics
jayson: guess its all debatable
m: no, looking fr out here, for economic reasons (probably 4 a handful), america will blast any/everybody
jayson: its not like we agree
jayson: its just this gov't
m: i said probably 4 a handful
jayson: but yea, i can definetyl see why people would be pissed with us
m: no, many people r not pissed w. americans. maybe, with pentagon. lol
jayson: yea, trust me, we are pissed too
jayson: at least the smart americans are
m: yes. anyway, it just happens
jayson: pretty much
jayson: just dont hold it against me
m: no, of course not. unless of course u'r from Pentagon. lol
m: u'r not Jason Bourne, of course. lol
jayson: funny, nope, of course not
jayson: and nope, not matt damon either
m:
jayson: just came out, i hear its really good
m: ya, d books r good
jayson: funny, had no idea there were books
jayson: i dont read fiction
m: Robert Ludlum
jayson: k, had no idea
m: its ok. i dont hev much knowledge of pop things either
jayson: i have alot of pop culture knowledge, i just don't read fiction books, so i had no clue Bourne was based off books
m: he is, one the spies who got derailed
jayson: i know
jayson: i saw the 1st movie
m: hevnt seen d 2nd 1?
jayson: hey, computer problems
jayson: and ya, guess i did see the 2nd
m: u, ok
D S: yea, my computer got weird, thats all
m: lol.
m: brb, am just printing some docs
D S: k

Meet Mr. Discipline/Punishment

2007-08-11T03:14:00.000-07:00

Since we started chatting (always from Y! chat), this buddy always talked about punishment, or disciplining kids. He saw my Ivong on cam, and since then, most chats went about disciplining children... and as I have said earlier, it's always a challene to keep the convesation in neutral ground...

f66_sm : >:Df66_sm : :-*
f66_sm : invite?
mt: wait
f66_sm : kmt: i look awful today, my kids & hubby arrived late last nite sono sleep
f66_sm : let me decide
f66_sm : u can never look awful
mt: i do
f66_sm : oh i look awful!!
f66_sm : :D
mt : lots of work
f66_sm : oh ok
f66_sm : u look great as usual
mt: kind of u
f66_sm : u do all house works? or he helps?
mt: we have a helper, but we help in everything
f66_sm : hubby too?
mt: mostly, he attends to our kids, while i manage the office
f66_sm : okmt: he is active in d office when september comes
f66_sm : okmt: u?f66_sm : u have a nice sailor shirt
f66_sm : yes i help at home sure
mt: i dont know what this shirt is
f66_sm : and we have a helper once a week
mt: i work relaxed, with feet up. lol
f66_sm : yes but why with pants??
mt : i always use pants... actually, my original get up is old jeans & cotton shirt
f66_sm : why not just panties?
mt : =))
f66_sm : i work nakedf
66_sm : u want to see?
mt : no
f66_sm : sure u must be careful
f66_sm : but as we are good friends i think that u can see..
mt: yes, and u know, my hubby can see through me
mt: i cant keep him secrets
f66_sm : cause i are slim!
mt: pardon?
f66_sm : he can se through u cause u are slim
f66_sm : he can see...
mt: i mean, just looking in my eyes, he knows if i keep a secret
mt: if its good, bad or nasty
f66_sm : ok
mt: we were best buddies, b4 we had a relationship
f66_sm : yes he is lucky to have u
mt: i hope so. i am also nasty
f66_sm : thats why i like u
mt: y? bec i am nasty?
mt: =))
f66_sm : no because u can be nasty sometimes
mt: well yes.
mt: tell me about urself instead
f66_sm : what would u like to know? all?
mt: things you consider fun, work, family
f66_sm : lets talk about sex
mt: sex?
f66_sm : yes u know what is it?
mt: of course
f66_sm : oh ok
f66_sm : u like sex?
mt: of course
mt: want to c what am doing?
f66_sm : oh yes
mt: am making a brochure
f66_sm : oh nice
f66_sm : how much money u take for it?
mt: its an office project
f66_sm: oh ok
f66_sm : i have 2 sites
mt: if u let me do some of ur stuffs, i'll earn
mt: what sites?
f66_sm : yes i can think of it cause here they take 50$ for it
mt: ok, i may charge d same, or lower
f66_sm : but u dont have hebrew fonts
mt: uh, yeah,
f66_sm : :-*
mt: maybe, if u need ENglish stuff
f66_sm : yes maybe
f66_sm : cool
f66_sm : great
f66_sm : i like the idea
mt: good. if u also need a website, buzz me
f66_sm: i have 2 websites that i owned
f66_sm : but in hebrew
mt: i c.
mt: u must b making huge
f66_sm : no not yet just for eating and so
mt: OK
mt: if u go international
f66_sm : yes sure
mt: ok
mt: u'r bz?
f66_sm : yes a bit working
mt: great]
f66_sm : sorry i had to go cause they played withn fire here
mt : :-O
f66_sm : yes
mt: K
f66_sm : is it bad?
mt : depends, where and the damage
f66_sm : in my room and just begining of the carpet
mt: ei, u better check
f66_sm : ok
f66_sm : why?
f66_sm : the wall too is black
mt: r u nuts? b4 it spreads
f66_sm : oh ther is no fire now
mt: OK, seems lke ur kids like to play with fire
f66_sm : yes
mt: must RUN IN THE FAMILY. :)
f66_sm : what would u do to stop them?
mt: first ofense, i talked to him (eldest, he was about 3-4 then) nicely.
f66_sm : i did that
mt: 2nd offense, he burnt his finger, and his dad spanked him
mt: third offense, i whip with stick
mt : NON YET SO FAR for another offense
f66_sm : so he got 2 spankings?
f66_sm : one on his finger then with the stick?
mt: yes. But in both offense, I told him why
f66_sm : oh sure
f66_sm : how many swats he got from u and his dad?
mt : one fr his dad, and maybe, 2 fr me
f66_sm : on his hands?
mt: legs
mt: or butt
f66_sm : ok ty
mt: no prob
f66_sm : u ground too after?
mt: yea, but its always forgotten. NO TV
f66_sm : oh but not in his room?
mt: no TV in rooms, just in the family area
f66_sm : ok
f66_sm : when was it?
mt: like, maybe it was some 3 yrs ago... so it means he has learned
f66_sm : :)
f66_sm : so u think that what i should do?
mt: depends.
mt: i guess u can gauge ur kids
f66_sm : in what way?
mt: if they like watching TV, then, no TV for 3 months
f66_sm : nothing?
mt: else? Maybe, u should keep an eye on them often
f66_sm : so no tv for 3 months and phone or pc or friends too?
mt: could be
mt: but pc, they have to make school projects/research
f66_sm : yes just for homework
f66_sm : 3 months no tv no friends no phone no toys?
mt : could be
f66_sm : ok
f66_sm : u want?
mt: what?
f66_sm : that i try it?
mt: up to u
f66_sm : what about toys? not allowed too?
f66_sm : just home works then sleep?
mt: up to u
f66_sm : and chores?
mt : yes, they hev to do
f66_sm : ok ty
f66_sm : i can ground them in their rooms?
mt: up to 2
mt: u
f66_sm : i mean after school to the room and not allowed to go out just with permission and just to chores?
mt: u can do that
f66_sm : what about eating or toilets?
mt: ei, that's too much!
f66_sm : what do u mean?
mt: eating & toilet r necessities
f66_sm : yes but with permission?
mt: :-Omt: NO
f66_sm : ok
f66_sm : but 3 months is ok?
mt: up 2 u
f66_sm : yes but u want me to try and see?
mt: sure
f66_sm : tell them to go to their rooms now then i explain?
mt : yes
f66_sm : ok hold on ok?
f66_sm : can i see u?
f66_sm : i just told them
mt: wait
mt: i feel sleepy already
f66_sm : let me see u sleepy
f66_sm : ty
f66_sm : do i have to explain why or just after 3 months?
mt: explain it ASAP
f66_sm : ok but after the chat ok?
mt: k, wait, am printing my brochure
f66_sm : ok
f66_sm : meanwhile i told them not to open tv or phone and not play
mt: c my brochure
f66_sm : yes nice
mt: we're on a tight campaign
f66_sm : oh ok
mt: only less than 2 months preparation
f66_sm : oh ok
mt: i'd be signing off any minute now
f66_sm : i told them just to sit on the chair and wait
mt: k
mt: that's great where their mom?
f66_sm : not here
f66_sm : i can lock the doors?
mt: up 2 u. but thta is too much
f66_sm : but it will help?
mt: no
f66_sm : i think i will just talk to them
f66_sm : thats all
mt: yes
f66_sm: it is better
f66_sm: i need to go now
mt: ok, bye
f66_sm: ok -

And Then Some

2007-08-08T01:24:00.000-07:00

And then, there are those who just request to view... and y' know, they are just there. Sometimes, they say hi, sometimes, they just want to view your cam, and they say thank you if you allow them to...

lincoln 2000420: wed morning whoa
mt: hello buddy!
mt: its late in ur area
lincoln 2000420: i know
lincoln 2000420: i have been prepairing legal papers to take to court tomorrow
mt: u hev a case? or ur a lawyer
lincoln 2000420: i wish
mt: whats that, ur a legal assist?
lincoln 2000420: i am filing papers till i can find a lawyer
lincoln 2000420: i am not a legal anything
mt: whats ur case?
lincoln 2000420: my old lawyer taking me to court
lincoln 2000420: cause i wont pay his outrageous fee
lincoln 2000420: i will pay part but not all
mt:
mt: us lawyers are like leeches
mt: they wont get off even when ur dead!
lincoln 2000420: its legal extortion is all
mt: why did u need that leech 4?
lincoln 2000420: my ex wife took me to court
mt: ugh, divorce? or just material division
lincoln 2000420: took me to court to get more money for child support
lincoln 2000420: 2 kids
mt: i c
lincoln 2000420: went from 400 month to 1000
mt:
lincoln 2000420: i know women love money
mt: basic, i mean necessity, but love?
lincoln 2000420: let me rephrase
lincoln 2000420: american women love money
mt: its a necessity, everywhere
lincoln 2000420: dont get me wrong i will support my kids
mt: i understand. u hev a hedonistic culture
lincoln 2000420: hedonistic?
mt: materialism, physical stuff
mt: d west.
mt: orient here, we're focussed on family/organization
lincoln 2000420: its all about how much bling you have
mt:
lincoln 2000420: i should have been asian
mt: u'r welcome.
mt: visit some time
mt: what d'ya do
mt: ever since we started chatting, its all about ...
lincoln 2000420: about masturbation
lincoln 2000420: lol
lincoln 2000420: i actually repair big trucks
mt: age?
lincoln 2000420: me?
mt: yup
mt: u
lincoln 2000420: u forgot?
mt: u said someting like 28
lincoln 2000420: lol
lincoln 2000420: 35
mt: ei, were same yr
mt: but i feel 103
lincoln 2000420: i dont have a mic yet
mt: i dont know what to do with that
lincoln 2000420: i have a cold so i cant talk well anyway
lincoln 2000420: i hope i can get rid of it
mt: k. it was my keyboards, its crazy!
lincoln 2000420: crazy all the time
mt: k, wish luck on ur case
lincoln 2000420: ty
lincoln 2000420: so do u think i m/b alot?
mt: no
lincoln 2000420: oh
mt: at least u r a little polite
mt: others r, "opin ur shirt!" "how ur tits!"
lincoln 2000420: i cant do that
lincoln 2000420: i will ask if a women wants to show...
mt: ya, i know. else, i could've spammed u
mt: i had like 40 already!
lincoln 2000420: dang

Fun =

2007-08-07T17:41:00.000-07:00

Not everyone you'd meet in chatrooms go for, "hey, asl, may i c ur tits?". There r also those who could be helpful and make sense, and this one is a kid (for me, well, i am 103 yrs old)...

JB: ehy
JB: hey
mt: Hi
JB: whats up with pics
mt: pics? i was asking help for my Microsoft (active windows) registration... if u'v got warez/astavista access
JB: yes i do
JB: what you need
mt: will u help me? i needf a registration code
mt:
JB: i can try but i cant gurrantee anything what code do you need the one for windows
mt: yes, XP. my installers were stolen
JB: alright give me a couple of minutes to find the xp codes
mt: thanks! well, uhm, i hev a laptop and 1 pc to register, so, i actually need 2, if OK w/ u
JB: ok i have to look thru a bunch of things but can you remember any anything that resembles a code for xp because that will help me find them quicker
mt: k, wait
mt: 25 digits/letters
mt: like
mt: RHKG3-8YW4W-4RHJG-83M4Y-7X9GW
JB: where did this come from
mt: i got it fr an online friend, but its registered already
mt: i need an un-used 1
JB: and these unfortinantly cant be created of the top of your head and the ones for xp that i have are different then this one
JB: they r 15 letters 5 numbers
mt: well, there r actually a lot of variety, but mine asks for 25 digit/letters
mt: & i am dumb w/ ds stuffs
mt: my IT is AWOL 9he took all my installers)
JB: did you try a random code
mt: i tried, it wont acept.
mt: warez had ads, but i only got a paypal
JB: try this i took other codes and recreated the code you gave me using a software i had from my computer in IL that computer is at my moms with no internet so i cant use it but i might be able to get thru the back door on it and retrive the unused codes from it but try this one first VDKA3-8YX4W-4WHYG-63M4P-9B7GL
mt: Thanks John!
mt: i owe u 1
JB: did it work
mt: i'll check later. i'l tell u. am still rushing a dealine. lol
JB: ok let me know later do you still need another
mt: i would probably need 1 if u still hev xtra.
JB: yes i have xtras hang on 1 sec
JB: MWUA5-2UW8I-6DYFK-86B9A-8S4OE theres another one sorry it toke so long but it i had to check my computers memory due to message it gave me when i entered it
mt: thanks! i really appreciate that.
mt: ei, i gave ur addy to my niece, Genie, hope u dont mind
mt: u'r a good friend, f i am ur age, we'd be good buddies! lol
JB: no i dont mind and yes we would and like i was saying let me know if it works and if it dont i will have some ready to go for you
JB: if those dont work give me a day and i will have some new ones for you
mt: sure, i would.
JB: does your neice have a name like geneebabe19
mt: ei, if u visit the Philippines, let me know. I'd host for 3 days!
mt: yup, that's her
JB: shes at a party thats not fair
JB: im sad
JB: lol
JB: and im thinking of visiting there
mt: sure!
JB: i just need to find out how much a plane ticket costs
JB: then i will be set
mt: depends on d season. these months, tickets r low-priced
JB: i was thinking in october or november
JB: or sooner
mt: yes, those months starts the fun
JB: what you mean fun
mt: fiestas ... a Spanish tradition of gatherings & events
JB: sounds fun yep
mt: yes. and people here r friendly (in contrast w/ ah - excuse me --- western fun=horny) lol
JB: really thats funny
mt: hehe. based on online experience
JB: so arent some of the ones here
John Beck: online
mt:
mt: well, most of those who IM me, say hi, then, how r u, then, let me c ur boobs! lol
mt: and end of the chat
mt: u'r d only 1 that makes sense
JB: so you dont show r boobs then lol
mt: only at the beach, with swim wear, of course
JB: yeah i dont think like that on a regular bases just some of the time
mt:
JB: and thats when i am very tired
JB: but i slept
mt: well, at least u'r normal...
mt: I mean, like 99% i chat with
mt: keeps on "show me ur boobs pleeese"
JB: should i be smart and ask then it would be 100% that has asked lol
mt: CORRECT
JB: but i wont do that because its rude
mt: right. respect is a high form of value
mt: and its rare
mt: u'd go a long way
JB: thats what my ma says
mt: u'r rare John. and u'r mom must b proud of u
JB: to a point
mt: i am too, as ur friend
mt: why 2 a point?
JB: i have a side that likes to find trouble but it has failed badly
mt: yes, expect that. u'd always like, want to be naughty at some oint
JB: yah but i like staying away from cops
JB: they r evil
mt: well, cops r also humans, and they also hev a friendly side
JB: yes thats true but they sure dont show it when you talk to them here
mt: that's part of their job. when dealing w/ cops, keep ur mouth shut
mt: my dad was a cop, and we always fought.
mt: but i know he loves us
mt: cops side with the meek (pretend, OK?). u just bow ur head and pretend d cops r right
JB: yes my friend is a cop and he talks with respect and shows respect to those who deserve it
mt: BUT y hev u been messin' w/ cops?
JB: i havint for 2 months
JB: im an
JB: lol
mt: 2 months? WOW, that's a long period! lol
JB: it was 2 years untill someone stole my stuff
mt: what stuff?
JB: my guns
mt: well, what can i say?
mt: licensed?
JB: yes
JB: the cops havent done nothing yet
mt: how was it stolen?
JB: the person broke in and stole them out of my case
mt: u know the suspect?
JB: yes and the person was being checked but they r still walking the streets and he has my guns in his house but the cops said they checked the house and found nothing but the guns were in the living room
mt: he must be an asset or some kind of 'protected'
mt: in every society, there is a form of "connection" or influence, even yours
JB: yah but the cops will arest him for being out at curfew
mt: u'v got curfew?
JB: no i dont
JB: he does
mt: under parole or something?
JB: nope
mt: u need d gun 2 protect urself ur mom?
JB: i have 15 different guns so the 3 he stole wont do him any good because the firing pins have been removed and the guns that r at my moms have firing ins and work great
mt: y d'u collect guns?
JB: i dont really collect them i just get them for fun of shotting i hunt and look closely to my pic you might see one of them but i not sure if my rifle is in it or not
mt: u'r on stealth, so, u'r pic does not show, but i didnt notice.
JB: hang on
JB: is it there
mt: yah, at ur back
JB: ?
mt: is not? i cant see then
JB: r u looking behind my head
mt: d pic is cropped
JB: what u mean cropped
mt: well, there's only an image other than u, behind u
mt: s that it?
JB: is it a whitish color
mt: yup. we also gre up w/ guns everywhere in our house
JB: the gun is near the top of my head on the wall right above my hat
mt: yes, i saw it
JB: i just like guns because of the looks
JB: i only hunt
JB: in the fall
mt: since when did u'r mom allowed u to hev them?
JB: she dont like them but she knows that they will keep people from breaking in to the house because of my gun collection and my step dads gun collection
mt: uh, OK.
mt: but they broke i to steal ur guns. lol
JB: that was my apartment
mt: ok. u lived independently at some time?
JB: yes and now i live with a friend
JB: and im going to visit
JB: you wait and see
mt: OK. be glad to meet u in person
JB: same here
JB: so what r we going to do when i arrive
mt: cool. i'd tour u around, introduce u to new friends, and u may stay in one of our huts
JB: that sounds fun but i will have to get use to the time change its currently 9:50 pm here so that is a 12 hour time change right
mt: yes, u'd hev jetlag & all, but a sleep could fix it all up
JB: the ticket to the phillipines where would i arrive
mt: try Cathay pacific
mt: U'd land in Manila (its polluted), but I would probably b ur guide & meet u at the airport. lol
mt: then, i'd bring u north for historical sites, beaches,
JB: how far is mindanao
JB: from you
mt: fr Manila, thru plane, 45 minutes
mt: U like to c mindanao?
JB: after i see manila
JB: then i go there
mt: yeah, they make lots of handguns there. handmade
JB: i might visit there for awhile just to see the guns
JB: but i wont go there untill i see manil
mt: gun-making? well, d guns r available all throughout. my dad has lots of suppliers
JB: really
mt: yup. he had been almost raided several times (they accuse him of running his private army) lol!
JB: that sucks
JB: they havent seen mine then
mt: it sucks! he has NO MONEY. lol
JB: i dont right now but in a couple of months i will
mt: ?
mt: but my dad is also nuts w/ guns
JB: my step dad is to
JB: im not really nuts about them they just sweet looking
mt:
mt: he had like, threatened me at some points...
mt: i told him, once I become afraid of him & his guns, he'll be living in a world full of lies
mt: he is like a local leader
mt: he was a sniper
JB: i want to be one
mt: cool.
mt: a spy? or just a sniper?
JB: i know
JB: sniper
JB: so what you r u doin now
mt: still finishing about 2 pages
JB: that sounds fun
mt: i hev to earn. lol
JB: what
mt: i am a researcher/writer
JB: i know that you told me when we first started talking
mt: i got paid per page
JB: oh really what you writing about i try to help
mt: this time, am writing about UK health policy
JB: me not know much about that
mt: its OK. u'v helped me... i'l check on that Windows reg once i finish ds
JB: well atleast i helped in some way right
mt: ya
JB: well whats up with you r u happy or sad
JB: me happy
mt: i guess, both. But i try to be happy more often
JB: why both whats wrong with my friend
JB: me try to help with that
mt: well, i like to do a lot of things i have not started yet
John Beck: like what
JB: tell me
mt: u wont want to know/hear
JB: why
JB: me want to know
mt: i am ... i dont know but I want to help make a difference on the lives of deprived people in my country
mt: and i dont know how i could start... like, i am not rich or anything
JB: well try giving alittle at a time
mt: u know, there r kids i meet that have not eaten for a day or two
mt: & its not enough to just give them a meal
mt: its not the food,
JB: i have to go with my friend to the store be back in a couple of minutes k
mt: K, bye
JB: we will finish when we get back k

More Chat Cracks!

2007-08-05T02:09:00.000-07:00

Things one would do to kill time! hah! Really, I had to fish for Windows codes cursing and all... All my installers are gone with the wind and my work is frozen!

Sample some chat... for fun, sure.

Smiley guides: there are blank messages which in fact contained Smileys. To add fun, choose the right Smiley on each blank message...)

Smile for Me (SM): hiiii
Here Spy (HS): hi
SM: how r u
HS: fine, tnx
SM: (wink)
HS: (smile)
SM: (smile)
HS: u look good!
SM: spanks (kiss)
HS: egyptian
SM: no lebanese
HS: u in lebanon now?
SM: yes
SM: why
SM: ?
HS: what?
SM: can i see u on cam
HS: its safe in there?
HS: am old & ugly
SM: yeaa it is
SM: i dont mind
SM: there u are (smile)
HS: c?
SM: yess
SM: (hug)
SM: ur sexy wearin this blue tank top (smile)
HS: (rolling w/ laughter) nuts
HS: u may consider me as a sister
SM: noo its not nuts
SM: why ur single
SM: (wink)
HS: married
SM: really
HS: yup, 3 kids
SM: nicee
HS: u work?
SM: yess
HS: what?
SM: i guess u saw me that day
SM: i couldnt talk to u....
HS: about?
SM: u know... i wanted to see u on cam
SM: then i went offline
SM: cuz i lost the power
HS: i guess i remember, lol
SM): (hug)
SM: open ur cam again
SM: i like what ur wearin (batting eyelash)
HS: tnx
SM: r u wearin a skirt?
HS: levi's
HS: pants, wanna c?
SM: yes plz
SM: (batting eyelash)
HS: wait
SM: okk
SM: lower the cam a bit
SM: lol
SM: didnt see much
HS: u wont c a single thing
HS: its pants. lol
SM: try
SM: lower the cam
SM: n' stand up again
HS: wait
SM: kkk
SM: mmmmmm turn around
HS: ei, ur 2 demanding
SM: lol
SM: sorry
HS: what's ur work?
SM: i work in a office
HS: what d'ya do?
SM: work on computer n' fill out some papers
HS: OK
SM: >,
SM:
SM: so whats a sexy lady like u doin on the net
SM: havin fun i hope?
HS: i work online. we create websites, 1-stop, write web contents
SM: yes i still remember
HS: its tough. competition is stiff
SM: yeaa ur right darlin
HS: and my laptop has hang-up
HS: u'v got a ****** code?
SM: yeaaa
HS: would u share?
HS: i can't open my laptop... its asking for some codes
SM: i would... but it might give u problems
HS: i could try
SM: wait let me find it
HS: i tried to find in pc stores for installers, but none in our area
SM: yeaa
SM: let me try to help
HS: am waiting.
HS: ok
HS: ei
HS:
SM: wcbg6-48773-b4byx-73kjp-***
HS: thanks!
HS: i'd try that.
HS: I HATE WINDOWS!
SM: lol
SM: sure
HS: no girlfriend yet?
SM: no gf yet
HS: Y? picky?
SM: yess
HS: Y?
HS: what r u lookin' 4?
SM: i wanna find a good one...n' this time to get married
HS: u'r still young. its good to enjoy youth as a single
SM: yeaa
SM: just like now
SM: with a married sexy lady like u
SM: ?
HS: right, but , well, i dont know how u guys out there party & all
HS: us, its like american
HS: girls & boys can kiss in public
SM: ;p;;
SM: same here
SM: lol*
HS: Moslem right? its not, i think. lol
SM: well some do
SM: n' some dont
HS: u should be going out with a girl u like every now & then
SM: yeaaa
SM: ur right
SM: i'll try
SM:
HS: want to meet my sister? she's single
SM: hmmm hold on plz
SM: ok
HS: horniestfrigid
HS: her YM address
HS: she's working, tho, and could only yM weekends
SM: hmm
SM: is she online now?
HS: yes
HS: am tryin to hell her to YM
HS: she's on d other pc
HS: she has cam too?
HS: no, just this, i'd call her
SM: hmmm ok
SM: soo...
SM: i wanna kiss u
SM: can i?
HS: wait, u'r real name?
SM: Ali
HS: sorry, she's on d fon
SM: its ok
SM: we can talk
HS: OK, u may ask me
SM: i wanna kisss ur lips
HS: (rollin' in laughter)
HS: its not possible
HS: u cant kiss married women
SM: loll...
SM: it would be a secret
HS: that's a bad secret. lol
SM: lol yea
SM:
HS: I dont like to keep bad secrets. just good and nasty ones
SM: loll
SM: yeaa
SM: u can keep nasty secrets with me
HS: my nasty secrets are like secret weapons I use when d right time comes
SM: yeaaa
SM:
SM: i'll be gladly to help
HS: well, i can give u a lot of advice, and lessons
SM: hmmmmm
SM: howww>
HS: u ask. i am married, remember?
SM: yeaa
SM: but i got experience too
HS: well, ask
SM: when was the last time u have touched urself
HS: i usually dont do that, i touch my husband. lol
SM: loll.. yeaa
SM: but sometimes ur husband dont have the power to satisfy u
HS: i seduce him
HS: women can demand, i demand on bed
SM: yeaaaa
SM: but didnt it happen sometimes
HS: yes, so I wait for the right time
SM: yea
SM: where r u now?
HS: at d office, y?
SM: cuz i was goin to ask if i can see ur sexy boobs
HS: u'r viewing already. i dont show
SM: yess i know i'm viewin
SM: but cant u show me ur tits
HS: ei, there r a lot of sites with topless sexy, beautiful babes out there
SM: yaa...but they dont turn me on
SM: n' they are normal
SM: thats why i'm askin to see urs
HS: 2 turn u on?
SM: hmmmm its gonna give me some feelings
SM: but it needs more to turn me on
HS: u'r a good looking guy... u should hev a girlfriend who can do that 4 u!
SM: true
SM: but its fun on here
HS: yes, but I do not corrupt younger guys. its not proper for a mother like me
SM: hehehe
SM: ur not corruptin me
SM: trust me
HS: consider me u'r older sister. i will be nice to u
SM: ohh come on marge
SM: i'm not that young
SM: i know alottttttttt
HS: yah, i know that
HS: i know u can handle girls/women easily
SM: yeaa
SM: so dont be hesitated when i ask to see ur boobs
HS: yeah, i know that
SM: cuz i also would like to turn u on n' even help u cum
HS: that's nice. but i wont do that, i love my husband and would like to be doing these things with him ONLY
SM: yeaa
HS: yes
HS: that's clean conscience & lifestyle
HS: if u marry a woman, would u want her to play ONLINE?
SM: noo i dont think i will
SM: but i'm a play boy
HS: good, baby. u'r learning
HS: i know ur a playboy
HS: good, baby. 'r learning
HS: i know ur a playboy
SM: loll
HS: i do.
SM: so u wont show me ur boobs?
HS: if u hev a wife, u'd want her to show her boobs to another guy?
SM: dont think i will
SM: cuz i wont let her dress like this
HS: like me? its bad dress 4 u?
SM: yes...that kind of dress u should wear in home
HS: we're sleeping here, with my sister. my husband is away, and there's no security in our house
HS: more secure here.
SM: yeaa
SM: well i wanna play with u
HS: am not a player
SM: (buzzz)
HS: peace, brother?
SM: lol
SM: wait
HS: what?
SM: u still there
HS: yup y?
SM: (hugs)
SM: sorry
SM: i had to eat
HS: k
SM: i wanna see u again
SM: mmmmm
SM: all sexy
HS: stop flirting w/ me. it wont work
SM: loll...i cant help myself
SM: thats me
HS: u hev good english. u studied in UK?
HS: the code u gave did not work
SM: sorry darlin....
SM: no skol,n' i help myself
HS: u'v got good english
SM: mmmwahhh thanks babe
HS: i dont believe u, about school.
HS: u stayed overseas?
SM: i swear... i also got it from listenin to english songs
HS: what songs? u got my addy in Yahoo rock
SM: yeaa
SM: i meant the good english
HS: u like rock? i like grunge, & hell lot of old rock
SM: same
HS: u must hev an important work, aside fr d 1 u claim
SM: nahh
HS: i expect that answer
SM: >:D<
SM: for real darlin
HS: when i was younger, i wanted to become a penetration agent
SM: thats nice
HS: but i got derailed. my dad wont let me study criminology
HS: i am anti-US
SM: :D
HS: a lot of people say I could fool easily
SM: >:D<
HS: am putting d cam off
SM: loll
SM: nah
HS: u c nothing
SM: let me see ur tits before u close it
HS: =))
SM: come on sexy
SM: i keep starrin at ur chest...its so sexy
HS: ei, there r a lot of boobs online
SM: i dont want them
SM: i want ursssss
HS: sorry baby
SM: come on do it slowly
HS: no.
HS: if u aint need anyhting now, i'd put ds off
SM: noo i want
SM: i wanna see ur boobs
SM: =p~:X
HS: u'r too trying hard... u'r a good looking guy
HS: u could get any lady u want
SM: i know
HS: ds' woman's TAKN
HS: TAKEN
SM: but i wanna see urs babe
SM: its nice to talk to taken woman
HS: =))
SM: so invite me again
HS: what time is it in ur area?
SM: its 11:31
SM: am
HS: time for lunch
HS: nice to talk, but not to show
SM: turn it on
SM: n' let me see them
SM: come on
HS: what for? i am ugly
SM: ur nottttttt
SM: i'm not sayin that as a compliment
HS: OK, but no asking for show this or that
SM: its for real.....
SM: come on
SM: open it
HS: i will only open, but no more "let me see..."
SM: why?
SM: i really wanna see them...so be kind to me n' show me
SM: :*
HS: u'r not like a helpless dork
SM: loll.
HS: u can do better
SM: well i wanna have my chance with u babe
SM: so coSM: openme on
HS: sorry
SM: opennnnn
HS: try other chat mates u'v got
SM: i dont wanttttt
HS: brat

HS: ei, ther r lots of videos online
SM: i dont want themmmmmmmmmmmm
HS: that's ur problem, not mine
SM: well open u r cam
SM: come on
HS: =))
SM: invite me
HS: where r ur parents/family?
SM: there are not here
SM: i'm alone
SM: open ur cam
HS: at Y! chatrooms, there r very interesting girls
SM: i dont want them
SM: i want u
HS: go play with ur age
SM: so invite me
SM: n' stop wastin the time
HS: ok, but i'd be workin the nx 10++ minutes... i wont get any messages
SM: well
SM: i cant take my eyes of them
SM: so show them to me
SM: come on babe
HS: NO
SM: u showed them before
SM: so show them to me
HS: =))
SM: i really wanna see them
SM: come onnn
SM:
HS: never done that
SM: come on babeee
HS: u dont believe me?
SM: put ur hands on them...n' expose them to me
SM::(
SM: plzzz
SM: come onnn
HS: i just like wearin sexy tops. but thats all
HS: i was like this long b4 i got married
SM: yea....well make me happy n' show them to me
SM: let me see them
HS: cry if u want. am not here to make anybody happy
SM: :(
HS: =))
SM: yes u will make me happy
SM: so do itt
SM: i'm waitin
HS: better get some lunch or sleep
SM: not before i see them
SM: ;;)
HS: u could chat on forver, but u'r not gonna c any boobs on this chat addy
SM: whyyyyyyyyy nottt?
SM: :X
SM: why r u being so mean to me
Smile for Me (8/5/2007 4:45:06 PM): i dont deserve it
HS: am not. its u who's being mean to urself
SM: noo
SM: i'm askin u to show me ur boobs
HS: i really cant believe u. if i were u, id' be havin a good time elsewhere, with a REAL girl;
SM: yeaaa
SM: but i dont want
SM: i'm havin fun on here
HS: really?
SM: yesss darlin
SM: n' thats why i wanna see ur boobs
SM: so stop torturin me n' let me seee
HS: wait
SM: okk
HS: http://sexywomanlingerie.blogsome.com/2007/07/11/
SM: loll..
SM: i dont need thoseeeeeeeeee
SM: :*
HS: y not?
SM: cuz they are shit
SM: they dont have effect on me
HS: =))
SM: so stop wastin time
SM: n' show me ur boobs
HS: am i?
SM: yess
SM: come on
SM: waitin
SM: do it for me
HS: ur good in english, but cant understand "no"
SM: that word i cant understand
SM: so do it
SM: so i could stop askin
HS: oh, sad
SM: come onnnnnn
SM: ??????
SM: ur not gonna show me?
HS: no
SM: okk
HS: By the way, thanks for the code...

Lost Generation

2007-07-24T20:30:00.000-07:00

Culture and tradition is shit for most of cyber urchins. But when you really get down to it, many are out there waiting to get a chance to learn with real persons they can relate and feel at ease with.

A few years back, I used to have a column called "Dear Mug". A play on "beer mug" inspired by a comment that the young generation would always ignore formality, education, and authority, and spit it all out over a bottle of beer. It appeared in the music magazine Rock'n Rhythm. It received rough, profound, enlightening, shittiest and revealing letters from the young generation. All in all, these were honest letters, trying to connect in a busy, corporate rat race world we have. Voices that could be easily drowned in traffic, work, responsibilities, not to include stress.

While there are massive campaigns to get attention, loyalty, and all material gains out there every second, the young, and even a few "matured" or old ones swim in a sea of this webby wilderness, trying to get attention, trying to get a little appreciation, time and solace, from a throng of strangers they meet online.

I'd like to revive "dear Mug" with the aim to connect with individuals, young and old, and give what they want to know in the most humane way I can, over a bottle of spirited drink, if necessary...

Yes, baby, rock'n roll is it. It's a culture. And it cannot be dirty all the time.